Worries

I am very worried about many things at the moment. All these pressures are just starting to build up. I hope there never comes a day where that final straw breaks this particular donkey's back.

First and foremost, Linda is driving me crazy. I have no idea why she's been ignoring me for a week. At first, it made me worried. Then it made me very, very sad when I realised that she may be ignoring me. Then I found out for certain that she's been ignoring me, for some inexplicable (to me) reason. Deep depression set in, I was about to cry, then I manned up. Now I'm just seething with anger and sadness. It's a dangerous mix. I might skip dinner tonight just so that I don't get to my family. I've tried my hardest, I haven't deliberately done anything wrong by her, and to the best of my knowledge, I haven't done anything wrong. I think what gets me the most is the fact that she's been ignoring me, without me knowing what I've done wrong. Like, she hasn't even shouted at me or anything similar.



I'm confused can you make me understand
Cos I try to give you the best of me
I thought we were cool, maybe I was blind

Next up on my pile of stress is my real estate course. I want to finish it by the end of this holiday.

Thirdly is worry about what the upcoming semester will bring. From here, it looks like a semester of academic hell. And possibly other types of hell.

Fourthly, I'm stuck in limbo about what to do about my clarinet. Do I go on, and take it half-paced, or do I stop? This is actually a big concern of mine. It's so hard to make a decision.

These would hardly be problems if Linda just started talking to me again. God, I never knew that someone could cut me this deeply. Looks like my heart isn't as cold as many people think it is.

Word of the Day: Worries
Currently listening to: Can U Help Me by Usher