And still I see no changes

Yes, it's that time of year again when I go "Yay, I'm a year older."

It just hit me that I'm 20. Wow, that seemed really old back in the day. I certainly don't feel 20. I don't look 20, and a certainly don't act 20. I look like a 16-year-old, and often act like one.

I think this is an apt time to discuss some changes.

Well, what's changed since I turned 18?

I've become more social. Less of a jerk, I suppose. A bit more mature in my approach to people.

I think I've become less materialistic. I've found that the little things in life, in many cases, are the best things. Like someone showing that they care about you, or they're thinking about you. These little things are mostly conspicuous because of their absence in my life. In plain English, that means that not many people show that they care about me, possibly because they don't, and this makes it all the more valuable when someone shows that they do, in fact, care about you.

Tying in with this emotion, of course, was an emo song title I came up with last night before sleeping, in keeping with me being at my most creative just before sleeping.

Anyway, the day started pretty badly. Like, I'm not even sure if my parents know that it's my birthday. My littlest sister does. And what's weird is that most of the friends that I consider closest to me have not even mentioned my birthday. Some have texted me, and I thank them from the bottom of my heart for that. Others...See, this is what I mean by care. It's just little things like this. I don't know. Maybe they'll do it later when, and if, they remember. Maybe they think it's sufficient having wished me happy birthday a few days ago.

Ah, yes. I had a BBQ a few days ago in celebration of this day. It was good. I have this thing for sitting around and talking and generally doing nothing. And losing at poker, so as to have more time to sit around talking and generally do nothing. It turned out a lot better than I expected, owing to the unexpected move of my family eating dinner earlier than the party, and the fact that most people turned up an hour late. Thanks for the presents, y'all. And more importantly, infinitely more importantly, thanks for turning up. Appreciated.

Maybe it is sufficient to wish someone an early happy birthday and leave it at that. Maybe I'm just being a sulk and a pansy.

Also, nothing much looks like happening today. The person I would like to spend the day with is busy, as per usual. Come to think of it, I think most everyone else that I know is. So I guess I'll just study for my real estate course. Woo hoo.

Word of the Day: Birthday